The return of Zaman Jahiliah :(

Assalamualaikum,

Astaghfirullahalazim. Why are these old puaka memories of mine keep haunting me? I'm scared. Ya Allah, why am I shivering like wohoo ni. I don't know why, my old memories, zaman jahiliah datang balik. Why must it be you, why. I tried my best to forget all my memories, everything, including my old friends *except Niesya* who brought me to a world full of sins and him who ruined my precious life. I hate going back to Seremban, because I feel harmed being there, with all those people stalking over me, I feel unsecured. Ya Allah, I need Your help. No matter how hard I tried to avoid myself of thinking the past, somehow, it keeps on haunting me, like a nightmare. The old me is my worst nightmare. Everything there, brings harm to me, unlike here in Ipoh, everything here brings luck to me. *Sigh. Hate that I met you, hate that I had to befriend with you guys, hate that I had to live there. Only Allah knows what's in my heart. I repent, oh Allah, I really do. May Allah strengthen my Iman. Amin.

Salam.